Kindness

To say that I am overwhelmed with the kindness, love and support that I have been receiving is the biggest understatement in the world.  It is hard to believe that a week ago, I had the nerve to post about being lonely.  I have some of the best friends in the universe.  You are physically all over the place, but you are in my heart, and a text, tweet, phone call, or email away.  I am ever so thankful.

I have apparently had some technological issues in the last several days.  My last two posts were done from my phone while at the hospital.  One post is completely MIA, but yet, you kind lovely people still commented on my post that was title alone. 

So a few things as to where we stand with my Momma right now.

Stage 4 lung cancer.  It has metastasized to other parts of her body, which I think I mentioned in another post.  MRI completed yesterday, did not show anything on her brain, which THANK GOD.  She will have radiation treatments on her hips next week to eradicate the cancer from the bone there.  There would be a serious chance of her hips breaking if they did not do this treatment.  Chemo will likely start the week following the radiation.  End result, six to twenty-four months.

The doctors have told her that she can go back to work if she feels like it.  She does, and will.  Her boss has been a rock star, and I love her more than ever.  My mom has worked at the same place for twenty plus years.

She surprisingly has no pain.  The doctors have called her super woman, they all think she should be hurting.  This entire time in the hospital, she has had nothing stronger than Tylenol and ibuprofen, even after the chest tube.  Mild sedation during that procedure, but after, nothing.  I would have been asking for the good drugs, and lots of them, but then again, I am a wimp.

She should get to go home today.  They are finishing a few meetings with various cancer people, to discuss what her treatments are going to be, and when, and what and I don’t know what else.

Last night my husband was able to bring Mea up to visit.  The ban on children is lifted if you are terminal, so I suppose that is a plus of having cancer if there is one.  My Mom wasn’t tethered to anything.  The chest tube was gone, the oxygen is gone, they did have an IV in place, but it wasn’t connected to anything.  Nana just looked like Nana to my Mea.  Which for right now is good.

I am worried about what I should say to her, if anything.  If anyone has any words, links or thoughts on what I should say to her or when I would take any advice you can give in this matter.  I don’t want to scare her.  I remember being scared to death when my own Nana was sick, and no one told me anything.  Even when I was older.  I don’t want that to happen to her. 

Again, thank you all for your kindness.  This week has been so hard, and without the texts, tweets, phone calls, and emails, I would have been so much more lost in my grief than I already am.  You are all the best.