Creativity Takes Courage*Posted: October 24, 2011
My Mack is something else you guys. Sometimes, I am just in awe of how beautiful she is, inside and out.
Since she left for school, and decided to stay in Yellow State City, I have been pouring a lot of myself into things with Mea. I think it’s been good for all of us in ways. I wasn’t helicopter Momma-ing her anymore. I was letting her spread her wings. I was still there when she needed me, and I will always be. In many ways, she needed to have this time to discover herself, without me.
Maybe, I needed to discover myself without her as a constant, as well.
The good news is that we seem to have made much headway overall in our relationship. I have quit viewing her as a “little” girl, which is/was so hard. Even though there have been many instances where she has proven that she is not my “little” girl over the years, it is a struggle to not feel that she needs my fierce protection from everything.
This second year of school is going well. I think that she has a new appreciation for being a “grown-up” now living on her own. It’s not always fun. Sometimes work sucks. Bills are stupid. But there are so many other great things that go along with that “adult” freedom. School is going well. She is going through many different studio classes, this year. She is able to spread her artistic wings, and do everything on her own (no group projects.) Her professors continue to look at her work in a very positive light, they can see her direction, passion, and creativity. I can see it flourishing in her as well.
She is happy.
That makes her Momma happy.