So RemeberPosted: January 2, 2012
Back last year when I was ever so sad about my big girl leaving and going to college at Yellow State? Remember how very sad I was? Remember when I was moping and missing my big girl so, so much?
I remember too. I honestly didn’t think I would ever say it, but I will almost be relieved when she packs her car up later and heads back to Yellow State City.
Now, I don’t love her any less. I still miss her like crazy when she is gone, but I have forgotten what it’s like to have her home for an extended period of time. I had forgotten how much my work load increases when she is home. more laundry, more dishes, more food, more, more, more.
A few other things that I have noticed. Now that she is an adult and is home, she really comes and goes as she pleases, and i get that, I do. I just worry when she is gone until 4am, and I don’t know where or what she is doing, when she is at school I know she is doing the same things, but since I am not there to witness it, I worry less. It is what it is.
Anyway, I am a little proud of myself for coming so far, I could still be a big crying, sobbing mess, but I am not.
The hard part will come in half an hour when she is leaving, and Mea is a big crying, sobbing mess. But again, it is something that even she is getting used to.
I was pondering to myself earlier if this whole sending my first child off to college has helped to prepare me for when Mea heads off to college, and it maybe has, although I am sure that those first several months will be hard, I think I’ll be in a better place than I was this time last year.
Then again, I do have thirteen years to forget, and she will be my baby.