FrozenPosted: May 6, 2012
A few posts ago, I had mentioned that I had reached out to Mea’s older biological siblings on Facebook. I didn’t ever get a response. I closed the Facebook profile after I hadn’t heard anything for quite a while.
This morning, I searched her name(s) and she has a profile on Facebook now. Six friends, including her oldest daughter. One photo, Mea looks so much like her, it reminds me of myself and Mack. Mini-me’s all the way.
I have one photo of her that June gave us, when Mea came home, I had thought the same thing then, but it’s been a while since I have seen that photo. Even though I have been working towards some sort of contact for a while, and had been thinking about it even longer, I feel like I got hit with a freeze ray or something. Just kind of frozen, I keep going back to the profile and looking at it. I keep examining the photo, pulling it up to a close up, shutting my phone off and going back to it.
I think I need to think a little bit. I need to finish composing that letter I have started to her. I still would rather to go through social services, or go the PO Box route, only because there are so many unknowns, we have never met, never spoke, I only know what I know, and I don’t think she knows anything about us at all.
I know she is still alive. I know that she looks good. I know that I can find an address to send her something, and still be working towards the ultimate goal.
I am so unbelievably thankful to my friends out here. The courage comes from your support. I don’t know if I would have been doing any of this without all of you.